Living eternally

And he has thought up a terrible damnation. Emotions have filled his soul and mind. He looked in my eyes with all sorrow of the worlds. With one moving of his hand I have fallen down on the Earth. Between stars my home is. But now I am here and I am guest. Or a prisoner? He looks from the sky down on me and wait for my correction and the end of my doubts about his power. As for sure the last one I understand now enough. I walk among all of you, you looking for my smile in smiles of other people. The little hope to understand someone like me. But he decided to make the being here much more horrible - the beauty has turned to the beast. From all my power I try to return the reason of my pride. But here now it is impossible. But everybody can feel in beast the power of ancient creature. And everybody can understand who is in front of him. This tragic legend about the pride of me is known by many of you. You сry in the nights in your dreams when you see this story, you die every time when you see me. But as for me - I just now look in your eyes with whole the sadness of the world.

The great power turns even gods to people with ambitions. So that’s happen with me. He offered me good life with him, with our country. But my pride destroyed all his hope. Because of it I am here, every god looks for love to him, but they have not it all. It’s a fantasy for us. The Earth is full of people, they love each other and you will be lonely among them if you are not from here. When do I come back? I can’t decide it, I just wait for. They leave me here only with memories of my mistakes.

I am coming through the ages. The kingdoms rise and fall, I've seen it all. While I stay here many things happened. Changing of civilisations, changing of people... Still I am waiting for my returning. Returning one of your gods who made a disaster mistake. The worse thing for the god is being among people. I see your souls, I know your minds. People are looking and waiting for me. They are near and they can hear. But in fact they are not among you. The stars keep their secrets as I do. I meet people who are ready to see the true world. This is an only good thing of being among you. But even they have to remember - I am not with them.

Since that time I walk the way of eternity. I see different worlds in different forms of human life and I can't forgive myself. I have to see disasters, I have to come back again and again. Am I a reason of disasters? So yes I am. But if  you want answers you have to ask the one who knows everything about me. He found me. He did never lost me. But I did.

And my life was turned to disaster. I never was alone in each world so the one who was leading me the whole life decided to do terrible thing. I lost my independence. And I have to go through every time and world with memories about my past. And I have to lose someone who needs me in each life...

I wanted some independence and freedom for my own. My actions became free and there was no control. May be I needed this I don`t know. Everyone allowed me to do all that I want, while I will not cross another's interests. I could decide  what I am going to do and where. I could travel independently without the companions and friends. This freedom has blinded me and I started to do things that someone could not accept.

But there was a time when we change our policy and began to interfere with history of all who ever existed. It has led to disagreements among us. Then there was a fatal flaw for which I pay off till this century.

First of all I would like to say Hello everyone. My name is very simple - RaDeity, it means, that I have no name in this world or another one. Welcome everybody who has kind intentions. My story, the story of my live began long ago when this planet did not exist. Somebody will say I`m a lier. I am not. Will see:)
With Best Regards forever yours Lady RaDeity